As we plan the next steps towards our future, I just wanted to spend a little time looking back at where Ryan and I have been this past year. It has definitely not gone the way we expected it to go. Instead this year has been a full of unexpected hurdles and struggles. One thing we know though is that God was always in control of our lives. His plan just looks different than ours!
Our Plan: To finish the renovations on the house to ensure a quick sell and in order to get back the money we had put into it - God’s Plan: The house to sit on the market for months and months until the last possible moment only to lease instead of sell making us unable to buy our own home now.
Our Plan: To use a nurse midwife (same as with Pockets) to deliver a healthy full term baby girl with no medication- God’s Plan: After four days in the hospital sweet Little Sis was born at 31 weeks and 5 days gestation after an emergency C-section.
Our Plan: To bring Little Sis home mid-June as the doctors had predicted for Pockets’ birthday. God’s Plan: She stayed in the NICU for 46 days and didn’t get to come home until late June and was discharged with a heart monitor.
Our Plan: That Ryan would find a job in Lubbock so we could move September 1st – God’s Plan: To move in with my mom in Fort Worth for four months. Even after several months Ryan still hasn’t found a job in Lubbock.
Even in all the struggles though Ryan and I look back and are overwhelmed by God’s provisions for us this past year. The greatest blessings we have received though is that we have a deeper faith in God than we ever did before. See in late July Ryan and I were in a place where there was absolutely nothing we could do but rely on God to provide for our immediate needs and to take care of our future. So we sought wise counsel, pleaded and begged to God, and then waited. Then the miracles began to happen right before our eyes. He started “showing up” in our lives in practical ways that were unexplainable. Things like unanimous donations when we were unable to pay the bills, having someone that could watch Pockets every single day while we were in the NICU, the overall timing of each of our moves, finding the perfect tenants for our house, being able to live with my mom temporarily while we look for jobs, and many many more.
I literally could write pages and pages about how God has “shown up” in our lives this past year, but I do have two small children at home and nap time is only so long. Maybe I will have the time to write it all down though as they get older. Both the kids are still so small now, but I hope we can share the story of 2011 with them someday so that they can fully understand how AWESOME our God is. My desire is that they learn to rely on the Lord for all that they need and in all that they do. I know Ryan and I will never be the same after this past year for that very reason.